Hmmm ...

OK ... Recently, everyone's askin me why i'm not writin nethin new ... 2 reasons - 1st is that I don't know wat to write ... and 2nd is that I've so many thots in my mind that I don't know wat to write or mayb how to put them in words ... lotsa stuff's goin on in my mind rite now but they r incoherent n so can't constitute of any solid stuff ... sometimes I think bout love, sometimes about relationships, sometimes bout Bhubaneswar, sometimes about friends (all over the world) ... but none of that seems to be windin itself to a coherent paragraph ...

anyways ... a recent incident is somethin which pops up in my mind sometimes ... I had been to this mall out here (probably the only one in Chennai) ... and was just walkin aimlessly when I saw this young guy walkin in my direction and a girl from a little behind him bidding farewell to him ... now the look on the girl's and guy's face was incredible ... it was the look of the innocent first date when u r young (mayb in school or college) ... and then she just waves a wrapped gift and shouts thanx and the look that she gave confirmed that there was definitely love in her eyes and the guy just stood there waving his hand and makin a gesture that it was nothin ... the way she smiled at him and the way he looked at her was totally incredible and heart-warming ... this was somethin I guess we can't feel anymore in our lives ... I can say that mayb once or twice I had come across this feeling myself when I was in school ... and trust me it feels really good ... and now when we are all sort-of grown-up and all, it really filled my heart when I saw that scene ... it really made me forget all my worries of the present and I just kinda thot about my past lookin for some moments like these in my own life ... I guess everyone shud have atleast one moment like this or sincerely I believe u have lost somethin really valuable ... i know it sounds like all mushy n romantic trash ... I myself can't picture me sayin somethin like this ... but I guess that's why I say we r all grown-up, and mayb in the past it was fine thinkin or feelin this way ... when we were young and innocent, incidents like these were the greater part of relationships wit the first loved ones ... but now it seems all trivial ... but I guess that watever the age, I think the look on the person who loves u will never change ... cos I think love sort-of brings a glow to ur face ... a sort of happy-glow ... and when ur loved one smiles at u, there is this radiation of some sort filled with love-ions and stuff ... and thats when U will know that that person loves u ... I guess it all reverts back to my post on Eyes ... lotsa people don't believe such crap, i know ... but they'll have to really see it to believe it ...

okie ... lotsa stuff written here ... i know u r bored to death ... so will now go on n continue workin - on my desktop - in my cubicle - in my pathetic loveless life ... ok ... don't believe pathetic ... loveless - SURE ...